Wednesday Rain

It's Wednesday and when I first got up it was sunny now it's turned cloudy and I see where we have a chance for rain. I got the kitchen cleaned up this morning and I am waiting for MURDER SHE WROTE to come on....I need to take an advil as my neck and shoulders are killing me this morning. So okay I might be more than a little depressed this visit with Melissa as we are not conencting like we usually do and I know I am in menepause but still......it's as though she has a full life without her parents and it's truly a sad thing. I really looked forward to spending some time with her but it's not working as well as I had hoped for and I can't put mu finger on it except to say that it probably wasn't the right time fotr me to visit. Now keep in mind it's NEVER been like that before....however Chase and I are getting along better than ever. Travis and I are so-so one night we are great and another night he acts like I'm the devil reenvented and just wants to talke to Melissa. Of course it didn't help she did a Tarot reading on me and the Devil Card came up....here was another bad card too that could mean I am going to die suddenly as in SUDDEN DEATH so I admit to not being to thrilled about my future right now. But this reading didn't have my present so hot mu past was great then my future depended on the choices of the present but there was that pesky Devil Card and another one or two....none were all that great! I just hope we have a better day today.